Our Words

So whether I like to admit or not, I am learning that If i want to be the woman God called me to be there are areas of my life that our going to be hard to fix. One of them is my words, I am a sarcastic person and like most of the world when I am tired and comfortable with the people I love most or frustrated I can say some hurtful things. Now in return those people do not always respond the nicest to me. What i realized tonight is it should not take the actions of others to change me. If i waited for everyone else to change, I would never change. My body is mine, my walk with God is mine. SO why I am I so stubborn. I am done being a pretender in this walk. I am done sitting on the side line. I am a treasure I am deeply loved. I am starting to truely to live like it to like that in other areas. tonight I guess was a night of learning about my words and my heart.
The spiritual two-by-four: how do i know God wants me to learn this, minus the fact that in classes and everywhere around me, inlcuding myself it seems like when we are tired and stresses(for us school people about finals) we just speak without thinking. I open my bible and Here is what I read:
"Reckless words pierce like a sword, the tongue of the wise bring healing" Proverb 12:18-- I have sidenoted see Matthew 12:34 which says "Out of the Overflow of the heart the mouth speaks "
If that isnt enough for me to get it..I am listening to International House of Prayer: They are singing May the Words of my Mouth and the Meditation of my Heart be pleasing in your sight , O Lord. , My Rock My Redeemer. "Psalm 19:14
So I am thinking I am going to be vunerable on this thing here: Here is my hearts cry, I do not want to be the same, I want to be a woman of the Lord, that is a contender not a pretender. I want to be one that makes things happen, that knows my King!
Dear Jesus:
I ask for forgiveness for the people that I have pierced by my reckless words that have not been from you. I ask from this day forward I can breathe in your Spirit before i do things , and breathe out the things that are not of you. I ask that I become of woman that has healing in her words. I ask that I become a woman that has Truth in her words even when the world doesnt want to hear it. I thank you for your forgiveness. Give me Strength . "Please Oh God set a guard on my mouth and keep a watch over the door of my lips." Thank you for who you are and that you love me where I am at, but you love me enough to not leave me there.! Amen!